HE LOVES ME?!
Omigomigomigomigomigomig~! He said he meant it! So thats basically saying I love you again! And this time i know hes nut ~JUST~ flirting omig im so happy~ ~ ~Im flying! OOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGG

Cant you see my love?
The lonelyness hits
as hard as a stone
as apparent as ripples
Its amazing
I thought it'd hit long before this
I sit
I cry
I wonder how long it will take
for you to acknowledge me
for you to See me
see me as i See you
tears, meant for the world to See
cant you See
how i stick my heart so far out on my sleeve
so that there would be no mistaking
so that you would See it
cant you See?
Maybe i wasnt clear enough
didnt use enough words to try
to try and say
to explain all that is within me
Will this do?
Have I been clear?
Cant you See it now?
Or maybe sometimes
my heart it too far out
and it is too far
for you to See
for you do not look
do you?
if you look
you will See
and there i'll be
holding my heart out
holding out my sleeve
Maybe when you See
the pain will fade
and maybe then
i can live
but for now
my heart is a block
a bock being punded on
and it writhes
it weighs down in my chest
It fills with lead
then trys to pull blood through
my heart
is dying
will you save it?
I...
am dying...
so...
will you save me too?

Dusting Out the Attic
Dusting out the ole` attic (aka my brain) and writing down what I find~~~ I do the same thing when Im making my songs~~~ Lets see what I can come upon shall we? Tennis Courts at CSB-Cheese-want to eat icing-going to make cake tomorrow-fun-MUD SOCCER-Hai behn-sam-cabin 24-need to blow nose-need to tell dog to STOP FARTING!-Need to get Zach to come Lazer Tagging with us- I have to stop here because all I can do is sit and drool! (Zach ur such a []> [] []\/[] []>!) lol j/k and ne way every1 knows I am ~THE~ []> [] []\/[] []>! j/k again lol you shouldnt let yourself get fooled so easy~! Ok im going to say something unhinderd by myself holding myself back!
I miss Zach most of all ='( I want to see him, or at least hear his voice again... If I saw him again Id probably give him one of those big hugs, not the friendly kind, the im-never-gonna-let-you-go-EVER kind of hugs... I feel so lonely when I think of him, and sometimes I cry myself to sleep. When I mail him i have to hold myself back from a lot of flirting im dying to let out, because in his mails he's always so calm and he doesnt act like he misses me the was i miss him... maybe he's holding himself back too? when we said goodbye he said I love you... I wanted to jump into his arms then, it made me feel so good... but I dunno if he meant it. Nicole warns me from being clingy but it would be impossible to see him and not cling, with all this feelings inside, you know? I remember as CSB seeing him with rachel at CSB, I has to turn around for a sec to blink away tears cuz he was flirting just a lil bit too much ya know? ='( I feel so lonely... I hope Zach can make it... I'll visit him at his house if he doesnt and put shaving cream all in his hair and up his nose if he doesnt! I SHOULD SOOO THREATEN HIM WITH THAT! muahahaha...